My Life..
I hope you guys don’t find my blog a bit random or odd. This is my first time writing my own blog. I will just express it out how i feel about my life. For almost 19 years, i have always been feeling lonely. The thing that i needed the most is a very close friend who are always on my side, who i can count on, who i can share my feelings and sorrows with them. I admit im the type of person who are dependable on others. I always want someone to guide me and help me whenever i have problems or i’m down because i have difficulty telling it to or sharing with my parents or my younger brother about my problems. I just want someone who cares for me, to support me,to encourage me. I also want someone to just hear me out or lend their ear to me. I can say i’m also the type of person that thinks alot, worried alot and it makes me ended up thinking negatively. Plus, maybe cause until today i don’t know how to manage my life, i don’t know what am i here on earth for..to do what??? but then again,i can be kind, nice and friendly to people but sometimes some people don’t appreciate me. More over, until now im still under my parents control. I’m still thinking how am i going to survive next time when i have to depend on my own…I’m also the type of person can be easily influence by other ppl or jealous of others that they can have what they want but i can’t like going to overseas to study…I always dream of living alone, knows how to take care of myself, being a better person, able to explore the world…but if i think realistically..my dad is a real estate agent and my mom is a house wife..how much can my dad afford it to sent me to overseas..if i really wanted it so much.. i should have done well in spm or in pre - university so that i can apply for scholarship.. However, i blew it and waisted it.. I didn’t focus on my dreams and goals strictly..always let myself easily distracted by other unnecessary things..that is why i couldn’t achieve my goals at the end..I wasn’t firm with my decision..sigh..but then again..how much can i do..i don’t come from rich family..that is why i have to appreciate every single opportunity i have by not wasting it because i have only one chance in my life..anyway, it has passed..All i need to do now is to move on with my life and just make full use of it what ever i had now..i can’t compare with those who are in rich family and those who can achieve higher than me…oh well..i just have to accept the fact that my future should be like that..i mean..come on..i still can be successful in either way don’t have to be like them^^ I just want to hope for the best in my life and future..hope things will come around..
